My Angel Wings

Today I applied for my Angel wings. What in the world am I talking about? A wonderful opportunity to support other cancer patients. If my application is accepted I will be assigned a cancer patient. I will become their ChemoAngel. My job will be to send a card or small gift each week for the duration of cancer treatment (no longer than 18 months). I think this is a FABULOUS idea!

I'll find out within 10 days if I have been accepted and will be assigned a patient thereafter. I am so excited. Here is the link so you can check it out for yourself.

ChemoAngels

They also offer the opportunity to "angel" senior citizens that need a friend.

Will I ever escape it?

Most days I don't think about cancer. It oddly enough seems like it never really happened most days. I look in the mirror though and I'm reminded that I didn't do this to my hair--cancer did. Even that will be corrected in the months to come though. I will then just look like a normal woman and no one will be the wiser to what I've been through. I like not thinking about cancer every single day. Here is the big BUT...but, I've found that cancer has invaded even aspects of my life pre-cancer. I am going through all of our photos and putting them in albums. Each picture I pick up I don't think about the memory it represents--I think, "Did I have cancer when this was taken? How long was I sick before we found out?" I HATE this!! Yet another thing that cancer has taken from me. Yes, I can push beyond these thoughts and remember the sweet things about the picture, but will this always be the process? Cancer first--sweet memories after? It makes me angry that a little tumor can change your entire life forever.

Small victories

It's all about small victories now. Today for the first time in a long time I applied mascara to a full set of lashes! They are still a little short and stubby, but they are all there. Man I've missed my lashes!

I'm feeling great and the hair is coming in nicely. It is starting to look like it is going to be dark after all. I thought I'd include a picture of the new and "improved" me for you today.