3 Years and Counting

Today is my 3 year mark. Three years ago I was diagnosed and as of today I am free from cancer. After my scare a few months ago, I am so relieved to have made it to this day. I just visited my oncologist earlier this week and have now been moved to 6 month visits. My Tamoxifen is working beautifully with no side effects, so on a daily basis I'm not thinking about cancer. I can't tell you how nice it is to feel like life is "normal" again.

I have found that I am still very disconnected from my body. While the new "girls" are nice they still don't feel like mine. When I look in the mirror they still seem foreign to me. I don't know if that will ever change. I have also not been taking care of myself as I should be. I am beginning a workout regimen this week. I have to lose a few pounds and hopefully get back into a body that I recognize.

Princess E turned 5 this week. I am so thankful to have been able to celebrate it with her. At diagnosis all I could think about was my life ending before hers really began. Every year that I get to spend with her is precious. I am also so blessed to have had another year with Ed. He is my rock, my love, my everything. He has been such a great pillar of strength for me these last few years, but also a soft place for me to fall. I love you Ed!

So as I think on things of cancer today, I praise the Lord for his continued blessings. I praise Him for his healing touch. While someday He will call me home and I will be joyful standing in His presence, I am happy that he is giving me a little more time down here!